September 29, 2008

Good Riddance

Filed under: Life, Whatever — admin @ 3:58 am

Bye Bye.  See ya.  Wouldn’t want to be ya!

The day is tomorrow, September 30, 2008.  The time is 10 am.   The place is my wonderful orthodontist’s office.  The event is getting these metal pokey things out of my mouth.  Forever.  Second time around for me.  In high school there was a lot more metal and a lot more “crookedness” in my teethies.  This time around the braces were an intervention to try to correct an awful open bite which resulted from tmj surgery.  Twenty seven months, tons of pain and soreness, and a gazillion rubberbands later, and I’m thankful to say that my bite is corrected, and even without the extremely invasive surgery that was at first predicted.  Yippee.

And tomorrow is the day.

My youngest daughter, Mollie, is three years old, almost four.  Most of her conscious memories are of me with these braces on my smile.  Oh, and she is a girly girl supreme.  Move over Fancy Nancy - you have nothing on Mollie.  So, the other day I was announcing to my kiddos that the countdown was on.  Mollie told me passionately, “I don’t want you to get your braces off.  I want you to keep them forever.  They are more fancier.”  Well, I’ll tell you, that is one request she is just going to have to get over.  I’ll buy her some braces of her own some day, and we’ll see how fancy she thinks they are!

Okay, only one more thing to say sing:

September 22, 2008

Marriage Prayer

Filed under: Life — admin @ 2:29 pm

Well, mongoose mom and her dear hubby are coming up on 10 years of marriage in a few months, and as I think through the path we have traveled together and the journey we are still on together, I wanted to give a loud tribute to the goodness and grace of our loving heavenly Father.  There have been some rough spots in our marriage for sure, and there will continue to be.  But I can see how God is working his grace in both of us, even through the weaknesses and struggles that we both have, and even in the ways we sin and hurt each other.

Listen to this prayer from our wedding day, March 20, 1999, that our officiating reverend prayed:

O God of gracious love, Thou hast established marriage for the welfare and happiness of mankind.  Thine was the plan, and only with Thee can we work it out with joy.  Thou hast said,  “It is not good for man to be alone.  I will make a helpmeet for him.”  Now our joys are doubled since the happiness of one is the happiness of the other.  Our burdens now are halved, for when we share them, we divide the load.

Give grace to this husband.  Bless him as provider of nourishment and raiment, and sustain him in all of his battle for bread.  May his strength be her protection, his character be her boast and pride, and may he so live that she will find in him the haven for which the heart of a woman truly longs.

Give grace to this loving wife.  Give her tenderness that will make her great, a deep sense of understanding, and a great faith in Thee.  Give her that inner beauty of soul that never fades, that eternal youth that is found in holding fast the things that never age.

Teach them that marriage is not living merely for each other; it is two uniting and joining hands to serve Thee.  Give them a great spiritual purpose in life.  May they seek the kingdom of God and his righteousness, letting other things be added unto them.

May they not expect that perfection of each other that belongs alone to Thee.  May they minimize each other’s weaknesses, be swift to praise and magnify each other’s points of beauty and strength, and see each other through a lover’s kind and patient eyes.

Now make such assignments to them of thy will, as will bless them and develop their characters as they walk together.  Give them enough tears to keep them tender, enough hurts to keep their hands clenched tightly in thine, and enough success to make them sure that they have seen your goodness.

May they never take each other’s love for granted, but always experience that breathless wonder that exclaims, “Out of all this world, you have chosen me!”

When life is done, may they be found then as now, hand in hand, still thanking God for each other.  May they serve thee happily, faithfully, together, until at last, one shall lay the other into the arms of God.

This we ask through Jesus Christ, the great lover of believing souls.  Amen.

As I think through this prayer looking back over almost ten years of marriage, it looks a bit different that it did when I first heard it on our wedding day.  That day was filled with a bit more romanticism, and life has been a bucket full of realism.  However, as I’ve made this prayer my own for our marriage over the years, I can see how faithful God has been to do these things.  My favorite part of the prayer is the most obviously answered.  Now make such assignments to them of thy will, as will bless them and develop their characters as they walk together.  Give them enough tears to keep them tender, enough hurts to keep their hands clenched tightly in thine, and enough success to make them sure that they have seen your goodness. Boy, has this been our experience, and though there have been hard times, I am so very glad.

One of the things I believe with much more conviction now than I did then, is that marriage is more about God’s good purposes in our lives than it is about our happiness.  He uses marriage to make us into more loving people, and especially if we lean in and listen to what God wants to whisper in our ears as we move through hard places.

If you, like me, could use a bit of encouragment in the area of your marriage, listen to this message by Gordon Bals, counselor for Daymark.  He takes Romans 12 and thinks it through in the context of marriage, and it one of the most practical messages on marriage I have heard.  And I hope you find a bit of hope in this prayer, no matter where you are in your marriage or life.

September 16, 2008

Walking in the Light with God - part 4

Filed under: Life, Walking the walk — admin @ 12:47 pm

Lately I’ve been writing a bit about what it means to walk in the light as God is in the light.  Think with me a minute about what this looks like in our relationship with God.  To be an open book before him.  Whether you are sad, angry, lonely, questioning, struggling, or ecstatic with praise.  This is not as easy as it may sound at first.  We are pre-programmed within our flesh and by our Christian culture, to “put on a happy face” as Tony Bennet sings to us.  So, we must first sift through our “ought to’s” (I ought to believe,  I ought to be thankful, I ought to be stronger than this.).  Then we must sit still long enough to hear our own souls and allow them to be heard and seen by God.  This takes practice if it is new to you, but it is well worth the effort for the freedom it brings.

Psalm 139:11-12 says,  “If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,’ even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.  . . you created my inmost being. . .

Isn’t that monumental news?  We can’t hide from Him.  We don’t have to.  He created our inmost parts and knows every secret about us, even what we do not know ourselves.  He’s not afraid of our dark places.  They are like light to him.  Listen to the words of these other Psalms that tutor us in this authentic relationship with God:

Psalm 10:1  Why, O Lord, do you stand far off?  Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

Psalm 13:1-3 How long, O Lord?  Will you forget me forever?  How long will you hide your face from me?  How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?  How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Psalm 22:1-2  My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?  Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?  O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, and am not silent.

Psalm 69:1-3  Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.  I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold.  I have come into the deep waters;  the floods engulf me.  I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched.  My eyes fail, looking for my God.

All of these psalms broadcast the great news that we are known, that we do not have to be afraid of God or of what he will think of our unfeigned struggles.  That we do not need to come to him make-believing that we are better than we truly are.  That he longs to interact with us exactly where we are.  That not only can he handle our doubts and struggles, but also that he yearns for that kind of intimacy with us.  After all, the only way for the dark places within us to be overcome is for them to come into the light of God.  Not by trying to hide them in the darkness of pretense.

This goes against our natural grain, our every tendency.  It is what I love to call the upside-down gospel.  It is a paradox that only in bringing our darkness into the light where it is exposed can it become light.  And it isn’t that we quit struggling or quit having darkness.  Rather, it is that we stop trying hard to be what we are not.  This is living in the light.  Being authentic.  Being seen as we really are and accepting the love of God in that place.  And coming just like we are into the light of God’s presence.  After all, that is where we will change and grow and flourish.  We were joined to him just as we are, and nothing can separate us from him.  Our own charade is the only thing that can keep us from experiencing the delightful freedom of being joined in this way to our God of light and love.

September 11, 2008

Wednesday’s Women of WOW!

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Okay, I am unashamedly a big fan of Sarah Palin, so I’ve chosen her for this week’s woman of wow.  One of the things that makes her a special woman is her love for and commitment to her family.  And I’m so happy for her to have been in the right place at the right time, for her quick rise in power, so to speak.  She is a woman with conviction and courage, and I’m thinking she reminds me a bit of Esther.  You know,  “And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?” And no matter what you think of her policies, I think you have to admit she is a pretty interesting woman - athletic, beautiful, smart, and caring.

Some of my close friends are big Obama fans, and there is a lot to like about that guy and what he stands for.  But for me, Governor Palin has renewed my excitement for the McCain campaign.  One thing is for sure, we live in an amazing country.  I just kept thinking that as I watched both the democratic and the republican conventions.  Where else in the world do people have such freedom of expression and speech?  Where else can two opponents fight it out fairly  (well, usually it is done fairly), and then on November 5th, we’ll accept what the people have decided and unite behind our new president?

No matter how strong your feelings and opinions are about either candidate, it remains important that we do not hate the other.  Neither McCain nor Obama are evil men.   It will not solve every problem in our world if the “right” one (whoever that is to you) is elected.  So, let’s rally around our favorite, and support whoever the winner is!

I’ve gotten a kick out of this bumper sticker, which I purchased during Palin’s speech last week and proudly display on my trailblazer. (I was so stoked, I got online to see what I could find while she was still talking.)  If you’re a fan, it’s a fun one to display.  Meanwhile, no matter who the winner of this year’s election is, it is an exciting time to be alive and to be a woman.

September 8, 2008

Walking in the Light with Each Other - part 3

Filed under: Life, Thinkin' it through, Walking the walk — admin @ 5:39 am

What does it look like to walk in the light with each other, in our relationships?  Am I advocating some kind of total openness where you tell your friends absolutely everything and describe how you feel about them every time you’re a little bit upset?  No way.  That would wreak havoc and ruin relationships (especially during certain hormonal times, if you know what i mean.)  What I am suggesting Scripture teaches, is that walking in the light of God’s love and truth brings us to a place of humility where we are able to live without masks.  Without pretending we are better than we are.  Without trying to hide behind performances of our own righteousness.  This makes us better friends, spouses, parents.  This makes us more approachable and enjoyable to almost everyone around us.

I John 1:7  But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

This Scripture tells us that the only way to truly have fellowship with others is to walk in the light.  I think the idea behind this is that there is no such thing as fellowship with a pretend person.  You can only truly share life with a real person.  Look at the picture above:  can you have a meaningful, fulfilling relationship with someone who is two different people under different circumstances?  Maybe this is what we often do with others.  We put our “white side” out for others to see, and we hide the darker, more real, hurting or struggling parts of ourselves.

The only thing that can free us to do this, to live without masks, is growing in the awareness, more and more deeply, that we are loved.  We are beloved of the Lord.  There is no fear in love. . .

We need to ask ourselves two questions when thinking about this in our lives.  First of all, do I have friends with whom I am sharing my real life in an ongoing way, without pretense or masks?  If not, what keeps me from doing so?  This type of friendship is the context in which we learn to live more freely with others in general.  The other question is, how can I be this type of friend to others?  What can I do to be more accepting and more of a “safe place” for my friends?  This is love.

September 5, 2008

Are we being consistent here?

Filed under: Biblical womanhood, Life, Womanhood — admin @ 10:46 pm

In the past few years I have come to question some things that I have been taught all my life in the “conservative” churches of which I’ve been a part.  I have not been silent about thinking some of these issues through.  A big one for me is the idea of God’s ideal for men and women.  I wrote a bit about it here.  Frankly, I no longer hold to a strict patriarchal view of Scripture and the Church.

Several months ago, someone who was a bit disturbed by the afore-mentioned post wrote to me and told me basically that this was a clear-cut issue in Scripture.  She went on to say that Scripture gives complete freedom for a woman to lead and to hold authority over men in the public arena, but that it would be unbiblical for a woman to hold authority or leadership within the Church.  (If you’re reading this, sister, I’m not upset with you, just insist on the freedom to think this through.)

I see several problems with this point of view, which is widely held in my small-town in the Bible belt.  First of all, it is totally inconsistent with what we say we believe.  Let me illustrate.  I come from a reformed background, at least for the last 20 years or so.  There have been many rich truths I have learned and been taught through the reformed churches which I have attended.  One of the most freeing and important of these is God’s involvement in every arena of our lives.  There is no area of our lives in which God is not involved.

This has been important for me personally, because I used to struggle with feeling as though I had more value when I was doing something “spiritual” that when I was not.  For example, I struggled for years thinking I should pray and read and share my faith more, but the motivation was out of guilt.  I have found this truth that God is involved in all the areas of our lives and that he sees life and the world wholistically to be an extremely freeing one.  The person who works a “secular” job has no less value than the person who is a missionary or preacher.  We cannot teach this truth that all of life is holy and present this wholistic view of the world and at that same time say that a woman can lead a man in the secular world but not within the church.  It is an obvious inconsistency.

Look at Deborah the judge of Israel.  I wrote a short post about her here. She was God’s appointed ruler of the nation of Israel - see Judges 4 and 5.  If we take the argument of many mainline conservative Christians that a woman can do anything she wants in the secular world, but she may not be allowed to have any real leadership over men within the church, then we have to explain away large parts of this portion of Scripture.  Deborah was the leader God raised up to lead Israel at a time when they were doing wickedly.  He could have just as easily raised up a man, but for his good purposes, he chose Deborah.

Judges 4:4 says, “Deborah, a prophetess, the wife of Lappidoth, was leading Israel at that time.”  The chapter goes on to document how she held court under the palm trees, and men and women came to her to settle disputes.  You cannot honestly tell me that these disputes were merely “secular” disputes, or that she somehow told the people that she could not answer questions that pertained to spiritual matters because she was a woman.  Also, we have the same problem with inconsistency here if we try to separate these matters.  If we are reformed, we believe that God rules over all the affairs of men.  Finally, she is called a prophetess, which is one who speaks truth.  Truth is about as spiritual as you can get.  And she clearly tells the leader of the army of Israel that God told him to attack the king of the Canaanites.

So, where is the consistency here?  We say that God sees all of life the same, that it is just as holy to change a diaper as it is to preach a sermon, that it is just as pleasing to God when we serve him in a coal mine as when we serve him on the foreign mission field.  But out of the other side of our mouths we say that Scripture allows women to be anything they want to be, except a preacher or an elder within the church.  Hmmm.  Do you seen any problems with this type of reasoning?  I do.  It cannot be both ways.  God is wise and intelligent and consistent.  His Word makes sense for all of life.

Could it be that his ideal for men and women relationships is seen more clearly (if we are able to look at it unbiasedly, which is almost impossible for us to do) in the description of life in the Garden of Eden before the fall of man?  When both man and woman were given the command to rule the earth and subdue it.  Could it be that the portions of Scripture which forbid a woman to lead a man, when studied in the context of social history (in other words as we think them through in the context of the real world in which they were written), righty place the advancement of the gospel over the “rights” of a woman?

This is easy for us to see when we look at the case of slavery.  We know that God’s ideal for people made in his image is NOT to be owned as slaves.  Yet, when we read the Old Testament, we see Scriptures written 2000 years ago that urge slaves to obey their masters.  God was telling those slaves who were owned by other human beings to be faithful to God in the world and station in which they lived.  But when the time came, it was right to fight for the end of slavery.  Thank God that slavery is largely abolished in the world of the 21st century.  I do not know of a single Christian leader who would try to say that slavery is Biblical.  Yet, before this great social revolution which brought about freedom from slavery, many many Christians used Scripture to support this idea.

In the same way, is it possible that the issue with women is similar?  Is is possible that God told women to live faithfully in the culture in which they existed at that time, and to give us some of the rights that they could have fought for, some rights that he originally wanted them to have and that he would one day restore to them?  About a year ago, I read a highly provocative book called Finally Feminist by John Stackhouse, which deeply investigates these questions.  While the book is not a once and for all answer to this debate between egalitarians and complementarians, it does a great job of looking at these issues in a meaningful way historically and a faithful way Scripturally.  I cannot recommend this book highly enough if this is an important or troubling issue to you.  The author does an excellent job of being frank and honest, and he presents a new paradigm with which to look at this issue in Scripture, with the humility of inviting discussion and ongoing scrutiny.  He does not claim to have “the” answer, but he has written an important work to help bridge the divide between these two camps of Christians.  I certainly still have questions Scripturally about this issue, but he got me thinking.  And I believe that is exactly what he wanted to do.

Whatever we do with this issue, we gotta be consistent.

September 4, 2008

Walking in the Light with Yourself - part 2

Filed under: Life, Thinkin' it through, Walking the walk — admin @ 3:42 pm

I am continuing to think aloud about this theme of walking in the light as believers. My first post focused on the general idea of walking in God’s light. This one will look more closely at what that looks like in our relationship with ourselves. In the earlier post I wrote that it is possible to be very good morally and religiously and to still be in complete darkness spiritually. At first, that might not seem possible to you. But let me illustrate:

Imagine a situation where a friend or spouse is angry or hurt about something you have done, whether you know it or not. This person is hurt and angry with you, but they just pretend that they are fine. Imagine it is extremely difficult for this person to open up and talk about hurt. So, they try really hard to be nice and act like things are fine, and they smile a lot and act politely toward you. However, inside, they are still nursing a grudge. And at some point, along comes something that ruffles their feathers too much, and their cover is blown. They can’t be nice anymore, and they explode or pout or ignore you.

Do you think that this person was walking in the light while he/she was acting nicely toward you but angry on the inside? I guess it depends. But if this person was not admitting their hurt and anger even to themselves, I would definitely say no. They were walking in darkness. They were refusing to see themselves the way they truly are, and because they were unwilling to face the truth about where they were personally, they were also unable to be authentic in their relationship with the one who offended them, hence the pretending everything is fine. This is walking in darkness.

The place to start coming into the light is by doing so with yourself. To be willing to see yourself as you really are, rather than how you would like to be or how you pretend to be around others. This can be a painful process, to be willing to have the light shine on your inner thoughts and feelings and ambitions and motivations. However, when we remember that we are loved, that the Light is Love, this changes everything. We do not need to fear shame. The One who made us knows us well. The things that are hidden even to ourselves, are known intimately by Him. And he is the one who told the one without sin to cast the first stone.

But, you might ask, what in the world does it mean to walk in the light? First of all, we need to remember we are not required to somehow make our own light and shine it on ourselves. This is not some type of depressing self interrogation and introspection. It is simply and beautifully walking into the light of God’s presence that is already there, and to allow the real you to be seen. It is his job to shine, and it is his love for you that will expose places of darkness in you and then cover you with his love in those places.

Here is an example from my own messy life. A few years ago, there was someone in my life I was really struggling with. Our personalities clashed, and it was difficult for me to get along with this person on the inside. I acted (and rightly so) really nice toward them, but inside me, there were lots of things constantly getting on my nerves. Walking in the light with myself meant for me to be able to admit this to myself in God’s presence. Over and over. For me, there were months of trying to talk honestly with God about my heart. There were many journal entries about how hard this was for me. There was much pleading with God to change my heart and give me love for this person.

And over time that happened. To some extent anyway. I don’t want to give the impression that things are peachy now, but over time, walking in light has brought about some real change in my heart toward this person. That would not have happened if I simply tried hard to be nice and covered up the irritation in my heart, pretending it was not there. I would have become more hard-hearted, rather than growing in love.

1 John 1:5-7 is key. Verse 7 says, “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.”

I have loved this song from Charlie Peacock for many years. Check it out here:

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from you
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do
What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a saviour

CHORUS
I wanna be in the light as you are in the light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Lord be my light and my salvation
All I want is to be in the light of love
All I want is to be in the light

The disease of the self runs through my blood
Like a cancer fatal to the soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring the sickness under control

(Chorus)

CHORUS 2
I wanna be in the light as you are in the light
Lead me into the presence of the Father
I will follow right behind, true love will find
All I want is to be in the light of love
All I want is to be in the light

Is there such a thing as a man of peace?
If there is, then a man of peace I want to be
I will need your help if I'm ever to be that
If i'm to lay down, lay down, lay down
Then I'll lay my life for my brothers and sisters
I will need your help, Jesus I need your light
Forever shining bright